Ummmmmmmmmmmmm.....
No, me either.
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Okay, I'm lying.
I wish I could say that I had some incredible epiphany that led me to the current quest that I am on. But in reality, I was prompted by the fact that I am about to have to make some major decisions for my future, and I had no idea what to do about them.
Me: Maybe I should explain.
Reader: Ya think?
Me: Okay, you don't have to get testy about it.
Reader: I'm clicking off this site in 3....2....
Me: OKAY!! Geez...
Short story is... (Reader: Thank goodness! Because anything longer and I'm outta here.) I went back to college a couple of years ago to get a degree in engineering. I'm coming to the end of that journey now. And I have to find a job, a new place to live, and basically, a new life.
You know.... no big deal.
The thing is, I got an interview as a chemist with an organization that would be a great opportunity.
Reader: Didn't you just say you went to school for engineering?? LIAR!
Me: Yes, I said engineering. But my undergrad was chemistry.
Reader: *crossed arms* And I should believe you because?????
Me: Do you want to see my degrees to prove it?
Reader: Yes, please.
Me: Too bad. You'll just have to take my word for it.
Reader: *snort*
The point is, after I was faced with the possibility that I might actually get the job, it made me question whether I even wanted it. Sure, it would be a good opportunity. It pays well. It would allow me to settle down somewhere. But, the thought of taking this job, and moving backward instead of forward, filled me with a lot of dread. I'm talking sick-to-your-stomach dread.
And then I had to confront questions that I wasn't ready answer.
Me: Hey, sooooo .... what is it that you want?
Me: I'd like to stay in the space industry.
Me: Yeah, I've heard that before. But what do you want to do in the space industry?
Me: .........
Me: Would you be happy doing something outside of the space industry?
Me: I think so......
Me: Where do you want to live?
Me: ......... somewhere cool? Near my friends?
Me: Can you elaborate??
Me: Possibly...... if I have some time to think about it.
Me: How about relationships?
Me: ...............
Me: How about anything??? Can you give me ANYTHING?!
Me: .............................
Me: *sigh*
So that's basically how this started. Now, I'm trying to figure out what the hell I want out of life. You know, simple questions like that. And I thought that maybe someone else out there in the interwebs might be going through something similar. Why not do this journey together??
*chirp chirp*
Okay, when someone actually reads my blog.