Have you ever been going along with life, thinking that you have things figured out and then life has had enough of your bullshit, slaps you in the face, and yells, "Will you WAKE THE HELL UP?!?!?"

Ummmmmmmmmmmmm.....

No, me either.

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Okay, I'm lying.

I wish I could say that I had some incredible epiphany that led me to the current quest that I am on. But in reality, I was prompted by the fact that I am about to have to make some major decisions for my future, and I had no idea what to do about them.

Me: Maybe I should explain. 
Reader: Ya think?
Me: Okay, you don't have to get testy about it.
Reader: I'm clicking off this site in 3....2....
Me: OKAY!! Geez...

Short story is... (Reader: Thank goodness! Because anything longer and I'm outta here.) I went back to college a couple of years ago to get a degree in engineering. I'm coming to the end of that journey now. And I have to find a job, a new place to live, and basically, a new life.

You know.... no big deal.

The thing is, I got an interview as a chemist with an organization that would be a great opportunity.

Reader: Didn't you just say you went to school for engineering?? LIAR!
Me: Yes, I said engineering. But my undergrad was chemistry.
Reader: *crossed arms* And I should believe you because?????
Me: Do you want to see my degrees to prove it?
Reader: Yes, please.
Me: Too bad. You'll just have to take my word for it.
Reader: *snort*

The point is, after I was faced with the possibility that I might actually get the job, it made me question whether I even wanted it. Sure, it would be a good opportunity. It pays well. It would allow me to settle down somewhere. But, the thought of taking this job, and moving backward instead of forward, filled me with a lot of dread. I'm talking sick-to-your-stomach dread.

And then I had to confront questions that I wasn't ready answer.

Me: Hey, sooooo .... what is it that you want?
Me: I'd like to stay in the space industry.
Me: Yeah, I've heard that before. But what do you want to do in the space industry?
Me: .........
Me: Would you be happy doing something outside of the space industry?
Me: I think so......
Me: Where do you want to live?
Me: ......... somewhere cool? Near my friends?
Me: Can you elaborate??
Me: Possibly...... if I have some time to think about it.
Me: How about relationships?
Me: ...............
Me: How about anything???  Can you give me ANYTHING?!
Me: .............................
Me: *sigh*

So that's basically how this started. Now, I'm trying to figure out what the hell I want out of life. You know, simple questions like that.  And I thought that maybe someone else out there in the interwebs might be going through something similar. Why not do this journey together??

*chirp chirp*

Okay, when someone actually reads my blog.